Started this blog because it's something I really dont want to talk about it to or with anyone but I dont like to pent things up inside either.
The whole thing started with a pap smear, or rather an abnormal one.
Great, or not so great. I was given a CIN 2 verdict.
2 spots with distinct lines at 1 and 3 o'clock.
At age 37, married without kids, its a tough call.
Do I go or not go for the LEEP op?
I read. Read alot about CIN 2 and the options out there.
I read about some reports on deteriotion rate etc, the risks and complications of the op etc.
I never thought about having kids before.
I was actually more for pro-adoption.
My husband mooted the idea of having a kid when I was 34. We didnt really try very hard but the idea was there.
Nothing happened and so finally shy of my 37 birthday, I went to check a OBG doctor for my irregular period consultation. Normally, my interval are like 2-3months apart but recently, my period was irregular and alternate abnormal cycle of spotting instead of bleeding. Not good.
That was when I discovered I had yeast infection and received my CIN 2 report in March this year. That really complicated things.
What annoyed me was that for a few years since 10years ago, I went to see GP about my missed period issue and NO ONE picked up anything abnormal like yeast infection or advise me for a scan etc. They just pat me on my shoulder say its ok and sent me home. How can GP missed my yeast infection is amazing. No one has ever told me I am not supposed to have white discharge all the time. I probably have yeast infection for the last 10 years or so since I have never been able to afford not wear a panty liner for the past years! How could all those different GP missed that during pap smear etc? fucking hell.
So imagine my frustration to know that from the scan, I am also have PCOS - Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome that attributed to my irregular symptom. I want to scream. I read that only 5-10% of the women will get it. It was a smaller chance than people getting fibroid. Why do I always seem to draw the short end for the stick?
Why did it take 10 years too? Why GP doctors couldnt be bothered to do a scan everytime I complain about too wide interval between my period. If someone had told me, I would have had more time to try other options like accupunture etc or change my diet etc. So now, all I get is one bad news after another even though they are not directly related to each other.
It took me some time to think but i decided to postpone the LEEP op for now.
Reasons are simple. Doing LEEP does not promised the complete elimination of the HPV virus.
They can return and each time they amuputate your cervix, it gets shorter and shorter and if I am trying for a baby, it will affect carrying the baby to full term with miscarriage risk. Of course there are reports that stitching will reduce that risk but I really dont want to. Plus some says the scarring tissue from LEEP will possibly affect as well.
While doctors often tell patients that for CIN2, the chance of getting worse is 40%, they dont tell you 30% chance of it staying the same and 30% of improving. So I told my doctor, since I only have 2 more years of window period before I can try for a baby, I will put it off till I try my IUI treatment and see how it goes.
It's a risk but its a risk I prefer to take then just getting myself all cut up without giving it a fair shot. After all, there is no guarantee that it wont get worse, so maybe it is better not to shake the boat for now and just opt for coloscopy to observe that it is not worsening. Cross fingers.
