23th Sept 2013. Mon
Woke up today, listless.
All the symptoms are gone. Nausea and everything. Even the hunger pangs.
I went about cooking and preparing for dinner by reflexes.
I looked at Facebook numbly, looking at all those happy smiling photos of the baby photos my frens posted. It was like a reminder of how useless I am. I'm not even good enough to hold a baby through. I look at the rubbish food they eat, and I wonder to myself, their body is healthier than mine? Really? With that junk diet, they can have a baby and yet there's something wrong with me? Such a slap in the face.
I'm contemplating when's a good day to abort the baby.
My husband has arranged for a get away trip on weekend to celebrate our wedding anniversary, which falls on Sunday. This was of course pre arranged back then happily, thinking there will be 3 of us, and now it's only 2 and a dead baby inside.
I didnt want to take the medication before the weekend because I didnt want the horror and memory of the cramps while purging out the dead baby to be something to live with during the weekend.
I'm not spotting yet, so my body prob still in denial about the dead thing inside.
I'm thinking Monday. Next Monday will be a good day to get rid of it.
I dont want to be in pain and bloody on my wedding day. It will be too much for me or for anyone I think.
Life is so unfair.
Why do I always have to make hard choices like this.
As if having a dead thing inside me isnt enough, it has to be smacked on with a happy day like wedding anniversary. What have I done in this lifetime to deserve this? I havent been nasty to anyone. I have always been humble and helped those in need. So why does all these shit have to befall on me?
I want to rage. Yet I have no energy to rage at anyone.
It's my own fault.
My own fucking lousy eggs.
My own fucking lousy body.
I think about what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life.
I wished now I never embarked on this pregnancy shit.
It's so much easier to live a life that you never know what is missing.
A BFN is so much easier to deal with than a dead BFP.
If there is GOD, he is a fucking sadist.
Monday, September 23, 2013
Saturday, September 21, 2013
As expected...the end of pregnancy at 8 weeks.
8 weeks 1 day (Sat), 21 June.
I went in for my 2nd u/s today. When the screen came to live and I didnt see any flickering light, I knew it was over. My doctor wanted to be more firm and she poked around more but from her expression, my husband and I knew it was bad news.
She explained that there are no fetal heartbeat. According to normal progression, there should be a heartbeat but she couldnt detect one. The sac was still growing at 3cm + now but she is positive that it's not a viable pregnancy though she was agreeable to having one more u/s next Thursday just to confirm (I am pretty sure this is more for my sake to accept the facts than for her).
I didnt go hysterical nor did I cry.
I was in an emotional void.
Detachment.
I didnt post myfirst u/s last time because I felt I was gonna jinx it.
It is still jinxed afterall.
I wasnt in denial. I was actually expecting it.
As I had posted in earlier blog, good things never happen to me when I really wanted something.
Which is why I had been cautious in my expectations all these time and the fact that I wasnt suffering from morning sickness, nor any other symptoms was already an early indication of things to come. We presume it was the medication that was stopping the bleeding and natural miscarrying.
So my baby died.
The next thing is to get rid of it.
I was given 2 options, via medication or D&C but she recommended medication. Basically u insert the pill vaginally and let the contractions begin. She mentioned 60% complete the miscarrying this way successfully and 40% will require D&C later to remove those bits that wasnt flushed out. At that point I still wasnt sure which I wanted. D&C comes with scarring and risk of infection but via medication involves cramping and pain. So we said we will think about it since my man left the decision to me.
We went off for a quiet lunch.
Honestly, it was abit hard looking at other pregnant ladies and wondering why the fuck am I so fucking unlucky. We hear about all those unwanted babies, lousy parents and here we are one those mentally prepared to be good parents with the means and yet we are deprived of one.
I dont know why I said sorry to my husband but it just felt like acknowledgment of his disappointment too. It wasnt that I thought it was my fault, I know it isnt but I know he was disappointed too and I didnt know how else to validate that feeling. He hugged me and told me it's ok and he was more worried about me but I told him I was fine. I wasnt lying, I was emotionally stale.
I went home to read about process and experience about miscarrying via medication.
I have about enough horror stories to last my time and mentally more prepared now.
The only issue is that next weekend is our wedding anniversary and I didnt know if I should perform the miscarrying before or after the weekend. I guess after will be better since I wont be feeling halfdead, visualising the passing of the blood clots to mark my anniversary forever for the rest of my life.
He will be on a business trip in 2 weeks time and I guess I have that window to do the necessary since I have read that it is crucial to have someone with me while I miscarry. Always good to be prepared. I need a "fetcher" and food provider I suppose more than anything.
That's my update.
I dont know when I will start grieving.
I havent told any friends about it so I guess I am spared the agony of verbally saying I have lost my baby.
This is my 2nd miscarriage.
God willing, I honestly hope there wont be a 3rd.
I went in for my 2nd u/s today. When the screen came to live and I didnt see any flickering light, I knew it was over. My doctor wanted to be more firm and she poked around more but from her expression, my husband and I knew it was bad news.
She explained that there are no fetal heartbeat. According to normal progression, there should be a heartbeat but she couldnt detect one. The sac was still growing at 3cm + now but she is positive that it's not a viable pregnancy though she was agreeable to having one more u/s next Thursday just to confirm (I am pretty sure this is more for my sake to accept the facts than for her).
I didnt go hysterical nor did I cry.
I was in an emotional void.
Detachment.
I didnt post myfirst u/s last time because I felt I was gonna jinx it.
It is still jinxed afterall.
I wasnt in denial. I was actually expecting it.
As I had posted in earlier blog, good things never happen to me when I really wanted something.
Which is why I had been cautious in my expectations all these time and the fact that I wasnt suffering from morning sickness, nor any other symptoms was already an early indication of things to come. We presume it was the medication that was stopping the bleeding and natural miscarrying.
So my baby died.
The next thing is to get rid of it.
I was given 2 options, via medication or D&C but she recommended medication. Basically u insert the pill vaginally and let the contractions begin. She mentioned 60% complete the miscarrying this way successfully and 40% will require D&C later to remove those bits that wasnt flushed out. At that point I still wasnt sure which I wanted. D&C comes with scarring and risk of infection but via medication involves cramping and pain. So we said we will think about it since my man left the decision to me.
We went off for a quiet lunch.
Honestly, it was abit hard looking at other pregnant ladies and wondering why the fuck am I so fucking unlucky. We hear about all those unwanted babies, lousy parents and here we are one those mentally prepared to be good parents with the means and yet we are deprived of one.
I dont know why I said sorry to my husband but it just felt like acknowledgment of his disappointment too. It wasnt that I thought it was my fault, I know it isnt but I know he was disappointed too and I didnt know how else to validate that feeling. He hugged me and told me it's ok and he was more worried about me but I told him I was fine. I wasnt lying, I was emotionally stale.
I went home to read about process and experience about miscarrying via medication.
I have about enough horror stories to last my time and mentally more prepared now.
The only issue is that next weekend is our wedding anniversary and I didnt know if I should perform the miscarrying before or after the weekend. I guess after will be better since I wont be feeling halfdead, visualising the passing of the blood clots to mark my anniversary forever for the rest of my life.
He will be on a business trip in 2 weeks time and I guess I have that window to do the necessary since I have read that it is crucial to have someone with me while I miscarry. Always good to be prepared. I need a "fetcher" and food provider I suppose more than anything.
That's my update.
I dont know when I will start grieving.
I havent told any friends about it so I guess I am spared the agony of verbally saying I have lost my baby.
This is my 2nd miscarriage.
God willing, I honestly hope there wont be a 3rd.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Coming to end of 6 weeks. One more week till the next scan
12 Aug 2013 (Thurs)
I should be 6 eweeks 6 days today. I am assuming my little one is still growing inside me.
Had my first scan last sat, which marks the growth as 6 weeks 1 day.
Doctor did a trans-vaginal scan to confirm 2 things. It is not an ectopic pregnancy (AMEN to that) and that there is a sac and yolk growing in the right place. Amen to that too.
Maybe i was just relieved that all is in place that I can't say I was excited or emotional looking at the scan. I think partially it still feels unreal, and also because we are not out of the woods yet so there isnt anything to get particularly excited till. There is another 6 weeks more to safety zone so I guess maybe for emotional self protection, I didnt inject too much of myself into this yet in case sometime goes wrong later.
The doctor said that the size is still a little small less than 2cm so there wont be heartbeat yet though the growth rate seemed ok. So rather than coming in at 7 weeks, we both agreed that it's better for me to come in 2 weeks later at start of 8 week. At least hopefully if all is well, there is more things to see?
Symptoms
To be honest, even though there isnt morning sickness, I have kind of lost the urge to eat. It's not that I find food repulsive, I have images of food in my head but I just dont want to crawl out of my bed to eat. I am happy to just comatose in bed and drink water.
My water intake has also taken a hit and decreased.
The only thing I didnt mind having was green apple and mango, though those Taiwan mangoes are damn hard to come by these few days. So annoying.
Lunch, because I feel so lethargic, I did the unthinkable of cooking instant noodle. I cannot help it. That;s the only thing I wanted.
I felt like there is something at the back of my throat stopping any food desire.
I had fish and chips yesterday, without the batter. Bad mistake. I thot the Dicken Pub @Hotel Excelsior HK would serve decent fish and chip but it was fishy in taste, not to mention expensive.
My body has always hated potato but because I was hunger (not not hungry at the same time) I had a few chip and I felt like shit and dead weight the whole day. It was horrid and I vow not to touch another crappy fish and chip anymore. It was a disaster.
need to figure out what is easy to cook is one thing, having to cook my partner's dinner is the tiring part.
I should be 6 eweeks 6 days today. I am assuming my little one is still growing inside me.
Had my first scan last sat, which marks the growth as 6 weeks 1 day.
Doctor did a trans-vaginal scan to confirm 2 things. It is not an ectopic pregnancy (AMEN to that) and that there is a sac and yolk growing in the right place. Amen to that too.
Maybe i was just relieved that all is in place that I can't say I was excited or emotional looking at the scan. I think partially it still feels unreal, and also because we are not out of the woods yet so there isnt anything to get particularly excited till. There is another 6 weeks more to safety zone so I guess maybe for emotional self protection, I didnt inject too much of myself into this yet in case sometime goes wrong later.
The doctor said that the size is still a little small less than 2cm so there wont be heartbeat yet though the growth rate seemed ok. So rather than coming in at 7 weeks, we both agreed that it's better for me to come in 2 weeks later at start of 8 week. At least hopefully if all is well, there is more things to see?
Symptoms
To be honest, even though there isnt morning sickness, I have kind of lost the urge to eat. It's not that I find food repulsive, I have images of food in my head but I just dont want to crawl out of my bed to eat. I am happy to just comatose in bed and drink water.
My water intake has also taken a hit and decreased.
The only thing I didnt mind having was green apple and mango, though those Taiwan mangoes are damn hard to come by these few days. So annoying.
Lunch, because I feel so lethargic, I did the unthinkable of cooking instant noodle. I cannot help it. That;s the only thing I wanted.
I felt like there is something at the back of my throat stopping any food desire.
I had fish and chips yesterday, without the batter. Bad mistake. I thot the Dicken Pub @Hotel Excelsior HK would serve decent fish and chip but it was fishy in taste, not to mention expensive.
My body has always hated potato but because I was hunger (not not hungry at the same time) I had a few chip and I felt like shit and dead weight the whole day. It was horrid and I vow not to touch another crappy fish and chip anymore. It was a disaster.
need to figure out what is easy to cook is one thing, having to cook my partner's dinner is the tiring part.
Friday, September 6, 2013
24dp5dt....Into the start of my 6th week. This is real right?
6th August 2013 (Fri)
24 days past 5 days transfer.
Congratulations, you should be 6 weeks, 1 days, pregnant!
Time really flies and 2 weeks have passed since I received the call from Dr Ingrid to confirm my pregnancy.
Symptoms:
Luckily, I still have not experienced much symptoms except for slowing down of my appetite. I'm back to only eating 2 meals aday because that's about all I feel up to. However, the portions are still normal and not increased nor lessen. The only difference is that I tried REALLY HARD to incorporate greens into my diet at least once a day at this stage. I dont always feel like vege everyday. So now that's the biggest change for me to date.
Still not putting on weight either which I assume I am eating constant.
Good.
And because I am not exhibiting any anticipated sickness (yet), my husband seemed to forget I am pregnant half the time. The thing that really annoyed me was him asking me last night if he needs to be there for my first doctor appointment tomorrow. I felt like smacking his head and screamed at him and asked if I'm the only one having this baby.
That brings me to another point.
I'm feeling easily provoked and in a PMS mood.
I feel irritable pretty easily.
That's not a good thing since I'm not good at mood swings.
Urination in the middle of the night is still a pain in the arse.
Still peeing religiously at 1 and 4~4.30am.
It's seriously disturbing my sleep pattern.
I get incredibly thirsty in the middle of the night too and its a vicious cycle.
Pee drink pee.
And my tits are getting itchy every other day.
I read that its normal because the skin is stretched but damned, I feel like ripping my tits off!!
Also noticing more zits popping on my face. Not sure if its hormones or my reluctance to use my skin care every night now.
A little concerned over my seemingly normal bodily functions, I went to get another digital test just to see if there are any changes. Frankly I am more worried if the readings dropped but thankfully to God, the readings has changed. Cautiously Happy. Everything rides on what the doctor says tomorrow.
I pray to god all is well and this baby will be normal and delivered healthily.
24 days past 5 days transfer.
Congratulations, you should be 6 weeks, 1 days, pregnant!
Time really flies and 2 weeks have passed since I received the call from Dr Ingrid to confirm my pregnancy.
Symptoms:
Luckily, I still have not experienced much symptoms except for slowing down of my appetite. I'm back to only eating 2 meals aday because that's about all I feel up to. However, the portions are still normal and not increased nor lessen. The only difference is that I tried REALLY HARD to incorporate greens into my diet at least once a day at this stage. I dont always feel like vege everyday. So now that's the biggest change for me to date.
Still not putting on weight either which I assume I am eating constant.
Good.
And because I am not exhibiting any anticipated sickness (yet), my husband seemed to forget I am pregnant half the time. The thing that really annoyed me was him asking me last night if he needs to be there for my first doctor appointment tomorrow. I felt like smacking his head and screamed at him and asked if I'm the only one having this baby.
That brings me to another point.
I'm feeling easily provoked and in a PMS mood.
I feel irritable pretty easily.
That's not a good thing since I'm not good at mood swings.
Urination in the middle of the night is still a pain in the arse.
Still peeing religiously at 1 and 4~4.30am.
It's seriously disturbing my sleep pattern.
I get incredibly thirsty in the middle of the night too and its a vicious cycle.
Pee drink pee.
And my tits are getting itchy every other day.
I read that its normal because the skin is stretched but damned, I feel like ripping my tits off!!
Also noticing more zits popping on my face. Not sure if its hormones or my reluctance to use my skin care every night now.
A little concerned over my seemingly normal bodily functions, I went to get another digital test just to see if there are any changes. Frankly I am more worried if the readings dropped but thankfully to God, the readings has changed. Cautiously Happy. Everything rides on what the doctor says tomorrow.
I pray to god all is well and this baby will be normal and delivered healthily.
Friday, August 30, 2013
17dp5dt. Still no symptoms?
30th Aug 2013 (Fri)
17dp5dt
I woke up feeling paranoid today.
Sleep quality was bad last night. Even though my eyes were drooping off by 11pm in bed, my brain was alert and unwilling to fall into deep sleep. Not sure what was going on there. My tummy was uncomfortable prob from all the gas builtup.
Got up at 1am to pee.
Got up at 4am to pee.
Despite having a good bowel movement earlier in the eve, fart like hell last night. Long loud ones and packed with omphf!Gotto be the black bean soup I had for last night.
I finally fell into deep sleep by about 7am, but my alarm woke me at 9.30am for my estroferm pill intake. I groggily took my pill and fell back asleep till 11.30am. Time for progesterone vaginal insert. Then I had the greatest sexual urge ever and before I knew it, I had an orgasm. Feeling guilty there since i read that it is unsafe to have orgasm during 1st trimester due to contractions. Well it isnt my fault my body is behaving this way!
Putting it behind me, since what is done cannot be undone...cooked myself some chicken lunch with rice. To top up my evil list for today, i drank a fresh coconut. All Chinese mothers will tell you its a No No because coconut is thought to be too cooling and will dislodge the baby. I might regret this but I couldnt help myself. I needed the drink. I wanted the drink.
Read alot about blighted ovum last night.
I am kind of concerned if it might be my case since I have no symptoms, no cravings, and its progressing as if everything was per normal. Like I said yesterday, pee stick is my only reminder of my pregnancy but that doesnt tell me if my hCg levels are rising normally.
I have said before that when I get too excited about something, it always gets taken from me? That's what I am really afraid about this baby. Maybe I am too happy way too early.
Take for example, I was just planning what to do on a nice relaxing weekend by myself this weekend as my husband was supposed to head to India for a fren's wedding. He had everything booked, visa paid etc, and just 2 days ago, suddenly he told me plans cancelled due to his biz trip on Monday. So there goes my weekend alone.
That kind of seriously jolt me back to reality and got me worrying abit if I had been thinking too much about baby's future in my head that it might be taken away from me.
I know people will mock me at my silliness and superstitious nature.
However, unless u are in my shoes to experience all those "let downs", you wont understand this inexplicable fear.
So I pray.
I pray for a safe first trimester, and a safe healthy delivery....
Symptoms
Hard to fall asleep. Hot flushes in the middle of the night.
Farts...plenty of farts.
Decreasing appetite
17dp5dt
I woke up feeling paranoid today.
Sleep quality was bad last night. Even though my eyes were drooping off by 11pm in bed, my brain was alert and unwilling to fall into deep sleep. Not sure what was going on there. My tummy was uncomfortable prob from all the gas builtup.
Got up at 1am to pee.
Got up at 4am to pee.
Despite having a good bowel movement earlier in the eve, fart like hell last night. Long loud ones and packed with omphf!Gotto be the black bean soup I had for last night.
I finally fell into deep sleep by about 7am, but my alarm woke me at 9.30am for my estroferm pill intake. I groggily took my pill and fell back asleep till 11.30am. Time for progesterone vaginal insert. Then I had the greatest sexual urge ever and before I knew it, I had an orgasm. Feeling guilty there since i read that it is unsafe to have orgasm during 1st trimester due to contractions. Well it isnt my fault my body is behaving this way!
Putting it behind me, since what is done cannot be undone...cooked myself some chicken lunch with rice. To top up my evil list for today, i drank a fresh coconut. All Chinese mothers will tell you its a No No because coconut is thought to be too cooling and will dislodge the baby. I might regret this but I couldnt help myself. I needed the drink. I wanted the drink.
Read alot about blighted ovum last night.
I am kind of concerned if it might be my case since I have no symptoms, no cravings, and its progressing as if everything was per normal. Like I said yesterday, pee stick is my only reminder of my pregnancy but that doesnt tell me if my hCg levels are rising normally.
I have said before that when I get too excited about something, it always gets taken from me? That's what I am really afraid about this baby. Maybe I am too happy way too early.
Take for example, I was just planning what to do on a nice relaxing weekend by myself this weekend as my husband was supposed to head to India for a fren's wedding. He had everything booked, visa paid etc, and just 2 days ago, suddenly he told me plans cancelled due to his biz trip on Monday. So there goes my weekend alone.
That kind of seriously jolt me back to reality and got me worrying abit if I had been thinking too much about baby's future in my head that it might be taken away from me.
I know people will mock me at my silliness and superstitious nature.
However, unless u are in my shoes to experience all those "let downs", you wont understand this inexplicable fear.
So I pray.
I pray for a safe first trimester, and a safe healthy delivery....
Symptoms
Hard to fall asleep. Hot flushes in the middle of the night.
Farts...plenty of farts.
Decreasing appetite
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Cooking recipe for pregnant ladies. Chicken broth porridge.
I just thought I would share some of the simple light easy to digest food I have been cooking for myself. It's so frustrating to plough the web and see alot of sites that say eat well without telling you how to make them.
You will need to prepare the chicken stock before hand.
Chicken stock preparation
Ingredients for chicken stock
- 2~2.5 litre of water
- 4 fillet of chicken breast.
- 1 inch of smash ginger, without skin
- 3 stalk of spring onion, only the lower white half.
Chicken stock cooking steps
1. Boil 2.5 litre of water. Add the smash ginger and spring onion. Bring to boil with lid cover
2. Add the chicken breast and turn the flame down to medium and close lid to boil.
3. After 30mins, the soup should taste of chicken stock, reduce flame and boil for another 45mins to hour at small flame. Once the soup taste naturally sweet, you are done.
Ingredients to make the porridge
- to serve 2 pax,
1 cup of jasmine white rice.
- minced pork, portion for 2
- 1 red carrot.
- prawns (optional)
- 1 rinsed spring onion, chopped.
- some sliced ginger
- sliced garlic
- shitake or fresh chinese mushrooms
minced pork cooking steps (after chicken stock is ready)
1. Rinse rice until water is clear. Add to cooking pot.
2. Add enough water to cover the rice by over 3 inch. (doesnt matter if its more since I will be throwing the excess away. However, it cannot be too little)
3. Cook the rice over medium flame and stir occasionally to prevent it sticking to the pot base.
4. Throw away any excess water when rice is almost ready and add chicken soup to cover rice into the rice pot. Continue to simmer.
4. Meanwhile in separate pot, stir fry sliced ginger and garlic with sesame oil till slightly brown. Add minced pork, chopped carrots (and whatever ingredients you like to add to your soup porridge) and stir. (For those who like heavier flavor, u may add salt, soy sauce and pepper) Add a dash of sesame oil for fragrance.
5. When ingredients are cooked, add to the porridge simmering in chicken soup stock.
6. Only Add fresh prawns now to the mix if you like to have some.
7. When prawns are cook, remove form flame and scoop into bowl. If you prefer it to be more soupy, add more soup into the porridge.
You are done. You may add dash of pepper and fish sauce for taste if you like but its optional.
So for those who might like chicken broth porridge, I am sharing my recipe here.
Hope other pregnant ladies searching for a change in flavor will find it usual.
Chinese likes porridge because the nutrients are easily absorbed by the body.
It fills you up nicely too and the soup makes it easier to swallow down food and low calories.
I would poach leafy greens separately and add them into the final produce towards the end.
Recipe: Chicken Soup Porridge with minced pork and fresh prawns.
Note: You can play around with the ingredients to include other seafood as you like.
The key to this is having a nice chicken broth to make the meal tasty, without the use of sugar or excessive salt.
You will need to prepare the chicken stock before hand.
Chicken stock preparation
Ingredients for chicken stock
- 2~2.5 litre of water
- 4 fillet of chicken breast.
- 1 inch of smash ginger, without skin
- 3 stalk of spring onion, only the lower white half.
Chicken stock cooking steps
1. Boil 2.5 litre of water. Add the smash ginger and spring onion. Bring to boil with lid cover
2. Add the chicken breast and turn the flame down to medium and close lid to boil.
3. After 30mins, the soup should taste of chicken stock, reduce flame and boil for another 45mins to hour at small flame. Once the soup taste naturally sweet, you are done.
Ingredients to make the porridge
- to serve 2 pax,
1 cup of jasmine white rice.
- minced pork, portion for 2
- 1 red carrot.
- prawns (optional)
- 1 rinsed spring onion, chopped.
- some sliced ginger
- sliced garlic
- shitake or fresh chinese mushrooms
minced pork cooking steps (after chicken stock is ready)
1. Rinse rice until water is clear. Add to cooking pot.
2. Add enough water to cover the rice by over 3 inch. (doesnt matter if its more since I will be throwing the excess away. However, it cannot be too little)
3. Cook the rice over medium flame and stir occasionally to prevent it sticking to the pot base.
4. Throw away any excess water when rice is almost ready and add chicken soup to cover rice into the rice pot. Continue to simmer.
4. Meanwhile in separate pot, stir fry sliced ginger and garlic with sesame oil till slightly brown. Add minced pork, chopped carrots (and whatever ingredients you like to add to your soup porridge) and stir. (For those who like heavier flavor, u may add salt, soy sauce and pepper) Add a dash of sesame oil for fragrance.
6. Only Add fresh prawns now to the mix if you like to have some.
7. When prawns are cook, remove form flame and scoop into bowl. If you prefer it to be more soupy, add more soup into the porridge.
You are done. You may add dash of pepper and fish sauce for taste if you like but its optional.
16dp5dt... Did another digital home test to see if my hCg is rising.
29Aug 2013 (Thurs)
16dp5dt. Still over a week before my first scan.
Woke up with the same feeling of a swollen left. It isnt swollen exactly but it just feel sort of like its in a pressurised cooker since yesterday. I hope this isnt one of the side effects from the estrofem.
My appetite since yesterday has actually slowed down.
I dont feel as hungry as the first 2 weeks and I am farting less, and also my thirst level has actually gone down. However, I am still determined to keep up my fluid level.
After a bowl of leafy greens yesterday, I went out to Senryo Sushi joint, and ordered myself a steam egg, fried prawn maki roll, and a salmon fish collar. That should complete my 2 fish servings a week, with one as oily fish Salmon. For a quick lunch nutrition boost, I juice myself some asparagus, celery, half apple and some grapes with a squeeze of fresh lemon juice. Again, that's the fastest way to increase fluid as well as the necessary vitamins for myself. Will need to buy broccoli for juicing soon just to switch the mix around.
Dinner last night was just simple watercress pork rib carrot soup.
I wasnt very hungry but still finish my soup with white rice.
I dont understand why alot of American posts I had read said Chinese food is bad for pregnant ladies. It's so incredibly plain and simple with little sauces, I find it way way way healthier than the western diet. Maybe the Chinese takeout in America is really bad... being altered from their original form to suit the western taste with the heavier flavoring...
Today, for breakfast fried myself 2 eggs, with avocado and orange capsicum on toast. Then I had a mandarin to round it up.
Feeling nicely full, I went to POAS again.
Since there are no other test, the digital test was the only way to see if my hCg is rising.
While I dont have the actual figures, the stick now says I'm "2-3weeks" which that I shall comfort myself, means that I'm still in the race. Thank god.
Symptom
Last night was the first time I didnt have any cramping. Which is also why I decided to do a pee stick today just to ease my mind.
My weight is still falling and I'm not having any morning sickness.
This and yesterday morning, I have been registering 49.6kg when I wake.
I am presuming the drop is due to the increase meals, and my body doesnt feel like it needs to store fat. Also, because I have cut out butter with jam on bread for breakfast, that might also be a cause for the weight dipping without the sugar in the jam and fats from butter.
16dp5dt. Still over a week before my first scan.
Woke up with the same feeling of a swollen left. It isnt swollen exactly but it just feel sort of like its in a pressurised cooker since yesterday. I hope this isnt one of the side effects from the estrofem.
My appetite since yesterday has actually slowed down.
I dont feel as hungry as the first 2 weeks and I am farting less, and also my thirst level has actually gone down. However, I am still determined to keep up my fluid level.
After a bowl of leafy greens yesterday, I went out to Senryo Sushi joint, and ordered myself a steam egg, fried prawn maki roll, and a salmon fish collar. That should complete my 2 fish servings a week, with one as oily fish Salmon. For a quick lunch nutrition boost, I juice myself some asparagus, celery, half apple and some grapes with a squeeze of fresh lemon juice. Again, that's the fastest way to increase fluid as well as the necessary vitamins for myself. Will need to buy broccoli for juicing soon just to switch the mix around.
Dinner last night was just simple watercress pork rib carrot soup.
I wasnt very hungry but still finish my soup with white rice.
I dont understand why alot of American posts I had read said Chinese food is bad for pregnant ladies. It's so incredibly plain and simple with little sauces, I find it way way way healthier than the western diet. Maybe the Chinese takeout in America is really bad... being altered from their original form to suit the western taste with the heavier flavoring...
Today, for breakfast fried myself 2 eggs, with avocado and orange capsicum on toast. Then I had a mandarin to round it up.
Feeling nicely full, I went to POAS again.
Since there are no other test, the digital test was the only way to see if my hCg is rising.
While I dont have the actual figures, the stick now says I'm "2-3weeks" which that I shall comfort myself, means that I'm still in the race. Thank god.
Symptom
Last night was the first time I didnt have any cramping. Which is also why I decided to do a pee stick today just to ease my mind.
My weight is still falling and I'm not having any morning sickness.
This and yesterday morning, I have been registering 49.6kg when I wake.
I am presuming the drop is due to the increase meals, and my body doesnt feel like it needs to store fat. Also, because I have cut out butter with jam on bread for breakfast, that might also be a cause for the weight dipping without the sugar in the jam and fats from butter.
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